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| Hello there sorry for such along
absence this is the first time in along time that I have had time and the
internet so sorry any way I have major updates coming shortly. | | |
| If life was a video game I am using the unlimited life
cheat because I have taken to much crap to still be emotionally sane and not
have some form of protection. My mission my ministry is to help people I will
not be swayed I will not give in I will prevail. I just wanted to let those
that care that I am still kicking and I am very determined. - My Last Serenade | | |
| If life is worth fighting for what is life, what
does it mean, Why are we inevitable drawn to what will affect our live
negatively the most, what do you do with life. Yesterday I was burned in a
wildfire of deception and controversy but I still remember those who are truly
my friends like Steven, Eric, Becca, and Theresa especially Theresa. I love
that girl to death. But she is about 2 ½ hours away from me so till I get back
to her area I have to contend with
nothing as far as a relationship. I would much rather wait for something good
than deal with a crappy thing now. Oh yeah I wish the best of luck to those who
betrayed me they are in God’s hands not mine especially the two of them Bradley
and Sam - God shaped hole | | |
| Yesterday was the darkest hour I have
face in years. Obviously for weeks a so called group of my friends set up a
plan to well deceive and destroy me. Well the deceived part came about but they
did not destroy me. It takes a lot of planning to best me. Well let me put it
this way nine versus one now are those fair odds? As the fires of rage burned hollowly within me
the tears of sorrow fled from my eyes I remained confident and objective not letting
them get the satisfaction they wanted and needed. I was and am still determined
not to have vengeance but to let them destroy themselves. I will let their conscience
take the blow let them suffer the pain I have received for when they needed some
one to turn to to look for their light I will have since removed from them forever.
As I left I made a point to play a song titled my last serenade by Killswitch Engage
my voice of dismissal and removal the way I say you are no longer in my life it
is like you never existed. Thru all of this 2 beacons of light shone thru Eric and
Steven. After the incident I Did not want to go home I could not I needed to get
away so I called Eric I talked to him and well we ended up going thru 3 to 5 different
towns and cities. Then Steven called me he needed a ride home and well I had held
out for the whole night but when I talked to Steven I broke down completely. Steven
is friends with me and (I don’t know if is or not now probably not) with the ringleader
of the whole charade and I had about 0.001 doubt in Steven so I need to make sure
if he knew or not and well I know Steven is sticking by me. To those who are depraved
enough to hurt other for fun or personal gain all have to say is that you will be
damned and will beg for mercy something those you hurt never had a chance to but
your pleas will fall on deaf ears and you will be tormented for your sin. Light flows in me but
darkness comes to those who cause pain. Till the next dawn. | | |
| I don’t think people understand some
of the things I am capable of doing. One of my friends Steven has been going
thru a lot lately he has been betrayed and was driven to a point I do not like
seeing him drove to but thank the God he is finally free of the shackles of Sandra
and Justin grasp but obviously they don’t like that and could not stand him
being free.. She didn’t like me from the get go as I did not like her. I knew
she had the potential to be a threat but I did not know she would be as bad as Stephanie.
She was probably worse and more devious. But now I am by my friend’s side not
to fight the war for him but to fight along side him if it comes to that. If he is the midnight hour I am the first rays of dawn. I am
the light that conquers the darkest hour and I will bring the sun. More
at dawns first light | | |
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